Last night, there was a sad news for dear. A friend of his passed away. Though I dunno him, still felt kinda of sad when I heard the news. Hmm..maybe more of worried how is dear dear taking it. Prior to knowing the news, I was still being "cheeky" with dear dear. Felt a little bad and worried after that. Despite dear dear being sad, he was still so sweet. I messaged him after that and told him to call me anytime if he need me. He replied that sad, yes he is and has got work to do but no matter how busy he is, he will have time to "hong" me to sleep so asked me to call him before I sleep. I was very touched and almost tear when I read the message.
Somehow I didn't really know how to comfort dear dear when I was on the phone with him at night too. I don't mind him telling me about it but I tend to keep quiet a couple of times as it somehow reminded me of mummy. I shared with him some stuff also. Guess the last thing I want, was dear dear to worry for me when he is already sad.
Hope that dear dear will get over it and be fine soon.

Last saturday night was a terrible night. I was still all right initially...Chatting with dear dear, having noodles and watching tv till the wee hours. I'm not sure why when I was sleep. My tears started flowing. I missed mummy very much. It's been a while since I last cried so hard and felt so sad. Yes, I do miss her on and off. But that night was different. Many scenes appeared as I was "raining". Really wished that she is still around, by my side...

hmmm... My friend told me that she had lost a loved one who took care of her when she was young... and she just mentioned that she found out the cause of her death and she cannot accept it....
Though I do not know the reason, I hope that she will get over it soon. What has happened has happened...Death is something which we will have to face some day....Have to learn to take it in our own stride...yes..tough it may be but we will have to pull through those hard times and tell ourselves that our loved ones who have left will want us to continue our life happily too...
I believe that the bad times we go through in life is a way to make us stronger...It is only through these experiences that we grow up and become stronger.... Some people may be fortunate that they may not have to go through a lot of "down" times....Others may not...That's just our life....No need to say it is unfair or ask why do we have to go through such times.....Instead, be brave! Face them and tell ourselves that the worst time have past, better will come. That is something which I often tell myself....
In fact, I was really amazed how strong I could be.